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| Why are we so afraid of rejection? Yeah, it might make you cry, or lose a friend. Or maybe instead of talking to him, we're waiting for a movie moment, that he'll just look at you one day and realize, damn i love her. hahaha. Take a risk. Whats the worst that could happen? It's not holy spirit anymore. There are more than 8 guys out there lol. We're fucking amazing and noone can compete. So is Aubrey. That lightbulb head girl cannot compete with Aubrey. osea helloooo. they are sooo fucking cuteeeeeeee. i want that. im so proud of myself. i had like zero guy distractions this school year so far. and i'm still a mess hahah. but i have my balance. this research paper threw me off a little. which i should be doing instead of xanga. myspace always fucks me up. im such a jealous person. whyyyy? gah lol. ooo when this paper is done, boy hunting !!! hahah yeah right. i'll probaly go like college hunting or something. | | |
| How do you live with yourself knowing you had sex with another girl's boyfriend? Are we another Lost Generation or something more? Is all we want in life pleasure or some deeper meaning to it all? Are we hedonistic people that go for food, sex, and drugs or intelligent and loving aiming for the stars, love, and hugs? | | |
| heh my birthday was soooo odd. casa manila and stop & shop with edward. on the phone with lourdes practically the whole time when edward wasnt stealing my phone and using up all my battery lol. THENNN FRIDAY, mall from 10 am to 6:45 pm with jaycee. soo long. then cheesecake factory in heels. running around menlo in heels trying to get tickets and people to the simsons movie. we found lourdes and john and john's friend and lourdes's friends. at night we we're chilling. jay was falling asleep and my phoen kept ringing and waking us up lol THENNN SATURDAY, we went to new york. started at NYU then soho then little italy then chinatown then times square. mann our feet hurt like a bitch. we got home and were supposed to watch live in rio [concert on dvd] but i was too tired so i was sleeping-ish and jay was using my phone to call her exclusively undefined and she was waking me up and we were making videos of me sleeping and feet shadow puppets and mann we had alot of stupid videos. THENN SUNDAY, we woke up got dunkin donuts and got dee and maryse to go to seaside heights. we got there after like an hour and then we went in the water for like 15 mins and we got kicke doutta the water coz there was lightning lol. so we were being fat on the boardwalk eating fried twinkies and fried oreos and funnel cake then it started pouring like a freaking hurricane so we were running but we couldnt find the car. so we drove to jersey gardens...wet and changed in the smelly bathrooms lmao. we ate then took jay to the airport and we waited there for 6 hours. til 11 something. and jaycee left her sneakers lmao. the end | | |
| blah okay i was supposed to go to the mall today pero i have to clean and wait for my momma to finish doing stuff so then i can pick out my brothers present for me lol. thursday was freaking crazy. jc told me that she couldnt come to la playa on my birthday anymore so that sucked since she was the only one going to come so it sucked and i was like crying because another crappy birthday and this time its my 16th =/ but then dee called me back and totally made my day. but shhh dont tell her i said that. she might think i actually like her or something when everybodyyy knows I DONT LIKE HER !@#$%^&* lmao but my parents are being okay this year. im getting a new ipod and something else but its a secret because deelickable might read it (yeah right) lol i hope lourdy's foot heals. praying is good. | | |
| I am talking on el telefono to grant and he is very tired and boring me. He is not talking at all [okay a little bit]. Im listening to my itunes and singing randomly and waiting for him to hang up on me for singing. Grant gets very angry when people sing or dance and he used to hang up when i sang but now he isnt which is very confusing. maybe hes too tired to comprehend that i am singing instead of talking lol. I told him i wanted to go shopping and he said go shopping and i said pero i have no money and he says go sell yourself, make another porno. lmao. zundada zunzundada. hakuna matata what a wonderful phrase. under the sea under the sea. it took too long it took too long for you to call back and normally i would forget that except for the fact it was my birthday my stupid birthday..your not living til your with meeeee.shalalalamyohmy u wanna kiss the girl. haha 12:40 delirious. | | |
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